July 6, 2010 12:25:45 AM

I think the biggest part that made me love you so much was the fact
that you taught me things about myself. You taught me how to be the me
I have always wanted to be. That me that makes me feel happy about who
I am. You are the most important person I have ever met in my life.
You can tell when I am sad. You can make me smile at the worst times.
Just. You help with everything. There are some days I want to die.
Literally. And the only thing that really keeps me going is you.
Knowing that no matter what, it will get better. There are always so
many things said. But what does even one word mean if it has no truth,
no YOU in it. If you know what I mean. We rushed into... Everything. I
don't regret one minute though. Not one. You know, I look back at who
I was before you came into my life. A lot different. Even if you don't
realize it, you changed me. In a way so drastic, I will never be the
same. Nor do I want to be. I have always been good with words, and I
always have a urge to put my thoughts into words. I hate thinking for
a second that no one is listening...no, caring, about what I have to
say. I get told almost daily from most that know me well that they
don't understand why I do things.... Why I act like I do. They say I
font act like most. To tell you the truth I am perfectly fine with
being different. You always told me that you liked that I was
different. Melissa says that there us no point in waiting for you,
because I will be just waiting for heartbreak. I knw she means well,
but she doesn't understand. I have faith, and hope, in you. In who you
are, and that your words were never empty. I keep promises, as I have
pointed out many times before. Love is, as the movie I was watching
earlier (A Walk To Remember) like the wind. You may not to be able to
see it, but you can feel it. I'm hoping you can love as much as I do.
I'm going to wait for you, you have my word. I love you, I will prove
it. Yours, Nigel.