Teach me.

So...uhm. Mkay. Today was interesting. I am mmmmeeeeeeeeggga confused. I'm not sure if you read this anymore. I am really confused. Fuck. Lets not bother with silly shit tonight. Everything is always serious stuff. Lets just chill while blogging. I miss yeah. Things aren't simple. I know, they never are. I'm just comforted to know my efforts weren't wasted. That I gave myself for a reason. Especially that whole virginity thing.....Its special. Anyway. Gonna watch another movie. I send my love, and eventually I will have it returned. I know you can't talk to me. I get it. Well. Lets see what time shows us. Maybe something good will happen. As for right now, I am going to spend 2 hours in spirit with you, watching that silly movie... Moulon Rouge :P. I'll let you know how it goes. I love you. P.s. This is a mess. As you recall "it's my mess and I love it". Right? Parents are stupid. Whats new. Hugs. Maybe next time you see me you won't act as though I smell foul...or have a contagious disease...Maybe I will get a hug. I know, long stretch. God. Things ended bad last time. But, the past is the past. Read my book again. You might learn a thing or two about love. Maybe I just learnt those things from you. You taught me how to love.