If you're there for me, and you say you are, why can't I see it? Why do I feel so alone? If you do really care, why are you kissing others?

I just wrote about 2 hours worth of writing. It said error once I published it. Fuck. What a day.

Why is it this way? Why does everything have to be so... Slow, yet so fast... My head is spinning

Iloveyou.

I really miss you.. So much

Forever and Always

Oh darling. So very much to say. I don't even know where to begin. You have your "boyfriend" which I have heard your opinion on many times before. So, again, I really don't know what to do.

There's this girl named Molly. I like. I haven't known her long. But I like her. But it's a whole new feeling being around her. Completely different from you, but strangly familiar. I love you very much, I still do. Everything inside me says I do. But I need to make my own life again. And that will involve Molly. You told me to go for whatever makes me happy. Well, I haven't found much. You remember me talking about the ordeal with those girl. That hurt. Molly is nothing like that. At all. I need you to trust me. But more than anything, I need you to help me trust myself. My hands are shaking as I write this.

I miss you so so much. I really do. You remember saying how Aaron might jeperodize our relationship? Well that won't happen. I really miss talking to you, even though it hasn't been that long. I'm not starting over with Molly. I'm continuing. You know how much I can love someone. And we both need it. Truth be told, I'm sad. You know this, because you can tell. I miss you so much each day. I need to start feeling something again. I know you've been worried. I'm sorry. I'm stupid and silly.

I love you so much, that's not gonna change one bit. I'm just doing what you figured out you needed to do already. I'm not asking for permission, I'm asking for your blessing. There's so much going on. I really miss having you around. I miss my best friend and my girlfriend. I love you. So much.
But I have to do this. So I can live my life again.