Take What You Will From It http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h8iWEktQhg0&NR=1

Nigel Peterson says:
*hi
melissa p says:
*hi hi
Nigel Peterson says:
*hi
melissa p says:
*hiiiii
*what are you up to?
Nigel Peterson says:
*uhm
*crying, hanging out..you know
melissa p says:
*crying ?!
Nigel Peterson says:
*just
*this is a sad song
*i cry easy
melissa p says:
*your cute.
*HEY.
decided i want to get a tattooooooo asap
*so why dont you come down here in 2 years and hold my hand while pain ensues.
Nigel Peterson says:
*sounds good
melissa p says:
*I want that : )
Nigel Peterson says:
*i see nothing
*...
melissa p says:
*DAMN
*
* melissa p stopped sharing photos
*
* You stopped sharing photos
*
melissa p says:
*well ill send you the link then (:
*http://s3.amazonaws.com/data.tumblr.com/tumblr_l0ahq5unJT1qzabkfo1_1280.jpg?AWSAccessKeyId=0RYTHV9YYQ4W5Q3HQMG2&Expires=1278904093&Signature=1sKIEavxg5YaAvjQ9%2FskYnbZU3I%3D
Nigel Peterson says:
*WOOOW
*stop being sexy
*its weird
melissa p says:
*LOL IM NOT?
*I just love it.
Nigel Peterson says:
*no no
*I just saw a picture of you..
*im like
*wtf
*she has boobs, shes hot
*weird
melissa p says:
*LOL
*WHERE?
Nigel Peterson says:
*your chest....? Where else would boobs be?
melissa p says:
*no i meant which picture
*obviously.
*I know where boobs are located thank you very much
Nigel Peterson says:
*Lol.
melissa p says:
*ps - are oyu even aloud to call me attractive?
*is that like
*in the friendship code?
Nigel Peterson says:
*...I don't care. I'm aloud to
*http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cD4ufkgzIxE&feature=fvsr
melissa p says:
*Hahahah okay nige
*ALRIGHT MY LIFE SUCKS
*example: Met extremely cute guy at warped, that wasnt famous .. he was extremely nice and gave me a hug AND i added him on facebook and HE HAS A GIRLFRIEND.
*like why are you approaching me if you have a girlfriend? WHYYYYYYY
Nigel Peterson says:
*....because guys and girls can be friends?
melissa p says:
*but he was like ..... flirty flirterson
Nigel Peterson says:
*?
melissa p says:
*Never mind hahahah its really not a big deal, just annoys me that there are no good guys out there for moi to enjoy
*the only nice guy that i can physically be with is jake ... and im so not interested in that. lol
Nigel Peterson says:
*...hahahahahah
*jake
*nice
*hahahahahahaahhaahh
melissa p says:
*Jake is like amazing nice ?!
*well i mean other than when he does weird things
*... like sexually oriented things
*hes a sweetheart :)
Nigel Peterson says:
*hahah
melissa p says:
*YESS you liked my awesome little family picture on facebook
*Where i look partially insane.
*Theres reason behind me laughing randomly
*i swear :)
Nigel Peterson says:
*:)
melissa p says:
*Blah .. im so hungry right now
*but i cant seem to eat anything
*lately my body hasnt been cooperating with my mind
*its annoying
Nigel Peterson says:
*id say so
melissa p says:
*yesyes, so whatsb een going on in your mind lately?
Nigel Peterson says:
*I'm just going through some old e-mails
*Riley wrote on my blog the other day...
melissa p says:
*no way
*: O
*i dont have your link anymore
*send it ?(:
Nigel Peterson says:
*Uhm.
*I don't think itd really important
melissa p says:
*no?
*well then nevermind i guess :)
Nigel Peterson says:
*k
melissa p says:
*.... idontknowwhattotalkabout
Nigel Peterson says:
*me neither
*riley said two words
*she wrote on my blog
*two words
melissa p says:
*what were they?
Nigel Peterson says:
*forever & always
melissa p says:
*and where does that leave all of this?
*I honestly dont get your whole realtionship
*dont hate me for saying this but your being a huge pushover. She basically said she didnt want you anymore, made out with another guy and is now saying forever and always? and your taking it? How can you justify what she did?
Nigel Peterson says:
*There is a lot of things that really don't make sense.
*Listen
*Everyone needs something to believe in, no matter what.
*Riley is that for me.
melissa p says:
*Why though? shes tearing you apart.
Nigel Peterson says:
*Maybe I was already torn apart. And shes teaching me how to be put together again.
melissa p says:
*That really just doesnt make sense. I get that you love her and all that, i desperatly believe in love like that .. but shes your first love..and it seems like with you, you want to give up everything for her
*but you need to think of it in the situation where she might not be the girl you end up marrying in like 20 years
Nigel Peterson says:
*What am I really giving up Melissa? You say everything?
melissa p says:
*Your sanity.
Nigel Peterson says:
*I serious doubt I'm going crazy
melissa p says:
*Honestly?
Nigel Peterson says:
*Honestly
melissa p says:
*You're actually trying to tell me that all of the times you wanted to wipe yourself off the face of the earth .. it had nothing to do with her?
*You really cant say that and be telling the truth
*Im not going to fight you on this .. but I am really not going to support you
*You even said you were more dedicated in the friendship than her ..
*relationship*
Nigel Peterson says:
*If not for the bad times, what would make the good times.
melissa p says:
*Well theres an aweful lot of bad times ...
Nigel Peterson says:
*I would live them all over.
*Rather than take away the good times
*If you think
*there was a lot of good times
*there was 20x more
*than bad
melissa p says:
*Okay I know. And I dont understand your relationship at all so my input doesnt even have to mean anything to you! But it seems like she tried to move on because she knew you guys werent going to end up together
*and in all honesty the odds of you guys staying together for another 20 years is so unlikely
Nigel Peterson says:
*how much?
*1 in a million?
melissa p says:
*hardly
*even if you guys
*never had issues
*ever
Nigel Peterson says:
*Listen
*For one sec.
*When I got put under with my surgury for my arm
*I got given 6 different drugs
*And I was allergic to the one
*I went into shock, almost stopped breathing.
*Afterwards, when it all finished, I sat in the hospital best for a good 45 minutes
*Shaking and crying, because my body had gone into shock. I couldn't stop it, and I didn't know why
*When I was shaking and crying, the only thing I could think of, was her.
*Not my mom
*not my sister
*not anyone else.
*Let me finish
*Now, Afterwards, the doctor talked to me.
*I could have died. I could have. The doctor told me I was allergic to the drugs, and I had two reactions. I was REALLY itchy, and I pretty much stopped breathing. He said less than 1% of patients have even one of those reactions.
*Why can't I be that 1% with her?
*And afterwards.
*The only thing I really cared about, was seeing her again.
melissa p says:
*I know that you love her and you care about her. I obviously can see that and would never doubt it once. Ill im saying is you cant limit yourself to just her right now. If your not that 1% your just going to be lonely.
*AND
*Maybe she isnt the love of your life, maybe you havent met her yet
Nigel Peterson says:
*Thats the thing Melissa. I don't care even if she isn't the love of my life. I am going to do everything in my power to have a chance. To be that one percent. I'm not limiting myself. But I have no interest in other girls. I don't know why. But, I compare her to them. And find something I don't like. Shes always on my mind. If I meet that girl, I'm not going to NOT take a chance. She told me once,
*something really important
*when this all started
*

Another thing, if you find another girl, that you like. Go for it. Don't let me hold you back. If you have a chance with someone else, someone who could make you happy, go for it. I want you to be happy. Please. Don't let me hold you back from something like that. I know you say it wont happen, but it could.
*Thats word for word
melissa p says:
*PAUSE-
*a stranger just called me pretty. OMG YAY confidence just actually reached normal level
*PLAY-
Nigel Peterson says:
*PAUSE-
*your a loser
*PLAY
melissa p says:
*WAIT
*im not a loser
Nigel Peterson says:
*PLAY
*fast forward
melissa p says:
*Alright ive actually had enough intense talking for one night
*You can do whatever you want honestly I want you to be happy and thats why i even said anything
Nigel Peterson says:
*Agreed. You know what
*she told me one really thing
*"I love you so much. You have no idea. We might have to end it for now. But i still want to spend my life with you. Even if we are not together for now.
*"
*I think
*that
*was
*it.
melissa p says:
*it?
*what do you mean?
Nigel Peterson says:
*When I decided I would wait for her, because it really mattered to me
melissa p says:
*Okay, well please just dont invest everything in her .. I dont want you to end up getting even more hurt and fucked over having to marry me at 40 (;
Nigel Peterson says:
*Sounds like a plan
*I'm going to live my life
*But
*shes still a part of it
*even if shes not
*OMG
*cute song
*video
*http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Uq3nI11w4g&NR=1
melissa p says:
*I actually love our friendship
*We can be so serious yet end up talkign about random things
Nigel Peterson says:
*I think I just love that
*tooo
melissa p says:
*I think I need to find someone like you to love forever! When I find a boy I will bring him to you, you can tell me if hes actually good : )