Parting of loving someone is putting them first.

I woke up yet again with you on my mind. I want to know if you still wake up thinking about me, or if everything has just gotten better. Maybe. Maybe not. All I know is that I'm going crazy. My mom is still just as ad, if not worse. How could you just cut me out. No thought about how I feel? Did you ever really love me, or just pretend. Part of loving someone is caring about them, how they are, feel, etc... You changed your ring, meaning your heart is not taken, meaning you never really did give a shit. Its sad to think I trusted you yet again. And I let you do the same thing yet again. I never once told you I wanted nothing to do with you..... But I'm not you..obviously. I finished a book called At a Loss for Words. Pretty sad book. Started two more. Need to finish this course online to pass grade 9. I'm getting there..hopefully.. I just can't believe how everything changed so quickly. I thought you said forever and always. I thought you said nothing could change that. Stop saying it. I do love you..