What makes me tired is not that my body needs the rest, its that my brain has worked for two long, trying to figure out things I don't even know I'm trying to figure out. Sleep is the off time for my brain, for it to recharge, and take a break from life. I dread sleep, not because I don't like it, but because I find it stupid, and unnecessary. Whats the point of living life if half the time your going to be pretending your dead...it just doesn't make sense. I have time to sleep when I die, right now is for living. I'm having a horrible time writing tonight, I can't get out what I want to say. It was 1:14 when I started writing this...now it's 2:24.... Okay. Look, I love you. So much. And it's great that you no longer are trying to convince yourself that you hate me as well, but, it's not gonna be easy waiting for each other, and you know that just as well as I do. But is it worth it? I think so, but are you gonna your mind again, or stay put in your mind set? We talked about kids, and marriage, and that jazz, but was all that just make belief, or was there actually meaning behind what was said?